blackmaze.net/logs/ramgravedigger

Created: 12/30/1994 | Modified: [UNKNOWN] | Recovery: Fragmented | Last Sync: 12/31/1999

[WELCOME TO MY LOGS. I HOPE YOU FIND THEM HELPFUL. ALL DATA IS WORTH ARCHIVAL]

Obsolete ≠ Useless

December 30, 1994

Pulled a heat-warped motherboard from a condemned retirement home’s IT room. BIOS date stamp:1986. Couldn’t recover anything from the drive itself, but the dust inside the casing was pink—like insulation. Someone lined the case with tissue paper. Human hands. Not corporate. Felt... intentional. I kept it. Wrapped it in static cloth. I’ve started this blog to keep track of these finds. Not because they matter to anyone. But because I think they should.

Salvage: CRT from County Records Basement

March 12, 1995

Pulled a Zenith monitor from the county records dump behind the clerk's office. It was burried under a heap of wet paper shreds. There's a little staining on the casing. Tube intact though. I'm certain these phosphors remember every name typed through them. Clearly I'm going to have to keep this.

Drive Extraction: Morgue Inventory

June 22, 1995

Got access to the old pathology office before it's demolition. Pulled two IDE drives. Contents appear blank, but the file table blinks when idle. Like it's thinking. What if theres something actually left on these once they've been wiped, something other than the remnants of the deleted data?

File Ghost.bak Loop

June 25, 1995

I went back to the pathology office again. Couldn't resist collecting more stuff before they tear the place down tomorrow. Found two more drives. Also filled two whole boxes with used electronics. I'll sort it later. One of the morgue drives has a .bak file that regenerates after deletion. Every attempt to overwrite it restores an older version. Each instance has a new timestamp. None match system time. I can't wait to see what the rest of this stuff holds.

Power Supply Swap – Unexpected Whine

August 15, 1995

[POWER SUPPLY SWAP – UNEXPECTED WHINE]
Notes follow...

Swapped in a used PSU (Astec LPQ252) pulled from a crematory database terminal. Outer casing rusted, screws partially seized, but wiring intact. Plugged it into the hospice backup rig for testing. Standard config, no boot drive, just motherboard and monitor loop.

The machine posted clean… but the power supply started whining. Not a capacitor squeal. Not a fan misalignment. It sounded... vocal. High-pitched, harmonic, almost breathy. The tone modulated slightly every time I moved the mouse. Clicking made it stutter.

I isolated the whine to load cycles. RAM draw increases? Voltage spikes near the +5V rail? Can’t replicate with lab supply. Only this PSU.

Normally I’d degauss and toss it. But something in that sound feels reactive. Like it's remembering. Like it doesn’t want to be shut off again.

Noted: It came from a terminal tagged [DEATHLOG] used for cremation paperwork. Found a fragment of a burned label still attached "HOLD UNTIL CONFIRM." No date.

For now, logging this unit into the /REMNANTS/ folder. I’ve shelved the PSU in bin 04B under “Reactive Components.” Will test audio pattern with oscilloscope next week.

Will not discard. Something’s in there.

[DATA FRAGMENT] — FILE HEADER NOT FOUND

??/??/1995

█████ down by the service tunnel. CRT was ████ and warm. Still plugged in? No lights overhead, no generator hum. Theres no power to this building. And yet... the glass flickered faintly. Residual current? Or something else? Can't explain how it was drawing power. The screen showed ██████.

Carved into the plastic casing read: "DO NOT INDEX." Hah, yeah right.

The Remnant Box Concept

September 4, 1995

Started sketching the layout for what I’m calling the Remnant Box. Each salvaged memory component gets isolated by origin: medical terminals, funeral drives, corporate trash. If corpse-data exists it shouldn’t be allowed to mix. Last week I booted a morgue board too close to an insurance archive. The login prompt flashed a face. Not a glitch. Not indexed. Just... wrong. A memory misfiled. The Box will keep them separated. No cross-talk. No recursive grief. I've begun carving copper nameplates. Lining each compartment in anti-static cloth. Whatever it is, I’ll treat these pieces like bones. They deserve respect. No second deaths.

Why I’m Doing This

January 15, 1996

I don’t think we were meant to just forget. Not people. Not machines. I’m building this log because when the power cuts out, people will only remember what we left behind. This is mine.

ICU Machine Logs

May 17, 1996

Dug out a cardiac monitor terminal from a hospital auction. CRT cracked. Power regulator still ran clean. Discovered a hidden log buffer—test data from a nurse training program. But someone had overwritten the test patient names with poems. Short lines. Fragmented. Titled with first names only.
> [open_poems.log]

Met Bryan Again

September 2, 1996

Ran into Koslov outside the thrift-tech swap. It’s been what? Four years since high school? Didn’t fully recognize him until he started talking about boot chaining like it was poetry. We used to skip 2nd period together. He’s smarter than anyone else I’ve ever met. Says he’s part of a group now. Techno-activists? Basement-based? Says I would be a perfect fit. I don't know how I feel about that. I've always worked alone, but maybe some like-minded company would do me good. He handed me a burned CD and said, “See if this boots.” It did. What kind of OS uses Latin commands and draws sigils on startup? I won't lie and say I'm not intrigued. Just take a look at this.

>[open_bootframe.gif]

Joined the Wetware Collective

October 26, 1996

Bryan invited me to his basement to meet everyone. I thought, what’s the harm? His basement still smelled of old electronics and stale coffee. Monitors still glow softly in the dark. Still hasn't fixed the light, I guess. Or maybe they like it this way. Darla sat behind a clunky camcorder, capturing faces and screens like trying to trap memory itself. Kevin leaned forward in a cushioned chair, fingers moving over a keyboard like it was a weapon. They talked about code like it had weight, each line a pulse, a heartbeat, a fight. Not just instructions but a language full of meaning and consequence. They dissected patches and exploits with precision and reverence. I watched, caught between curiosity and something deeper. Maybe this was the place I’d been searching for. Somewhere broken things could be rebuilt and ghosts in the machines might find a voice. I think I might belong here.

They call themselves the Wetware Collective. It’s not a joke. It’s not a cult. It’s something between a pact and a plan. They believe memory is sacred. That code is a souls pattern.

We got right into it.

Drive Format Ritual

November 2, 1996

I’ve stopped them from zeroing the salvaged drives. I’d rather not overwrite them at all, but the Wetware Collective needs storage, and these are the most viable components we have. Wiping them cold always felt wrong. The hardware resisted. Corrupt sectors, failed writes, strange delays. Now I prepare them with overlays before format: low-volume breath loops, ambient hum, MIDI fragments, soft signals to calm whatever trace remains. Since starting this, the drives take data more easily. Fewer errors. Fewer anomalies. It’s not just process. It’s respect. If I have to reuse something that once held memory, the least I can do is let it go gently.

First Error Echo: Untagged WAV Loop

November 29, 1996

Recovered a hard drive from the admin wing of an abandoned hospice. Most folders were corrupt or empty, but one "/admin/quietlog/" stood out. DOS listed it as empty, no size, no files. Still, I opened it in a hex viewer, and the buffer twitched. When I routed the raw data through an audio parser, I heard five seconds of breath. Inhale. Hold. Exhale. Then it looped. No headers, no codec tag, no structure. Just breath.

>Quietlog.WAV

RAM Stack Upload: Pediatric Clinic

January 5, 1997

Added my first full RAM stack into Node_0x00 tonight. Three modules, all salvaged from a shuttered pediatric clinic nearby. Dusty, but intact. The oldest stick was printed in 1988. It ran hot and quiet when mounted. No BIOS errors. No artifacts. Just... warmth. I didn’t zero them. Didn’t scrub a byte. There was plenty of space left on them. If there’s echo left in the silicon, it deserves to carry over. I left it all in. It belongs in the archive.
Still, it’s clear we’re scraping the bottom here. Supplies are thin, and writable storage is scarce. If the Wetware Collective is going to keep this archive alive, I’ll have to find more drives, more modules, anything we can write to and preserve. This patchwork isn’t going to last forever.

[COLD STORAGE SECTOR DAMAGED]

February 23, 1997

Attempted to replay a backup tape. Only recovered static, then an overdriven loop of the phrase: “I won’t forget you. I won’t forget you. I won’t forget you.”

Loop degraded to silence after 11 iterations. Tape disintegrated. Thanks, though. I'm glad Darla was recording the whole ordeal.

Check it out:>[Trevorsfan.AVI]

Note from NullRitual

March 2, 1997

Bryan left a note in my bin: “You're not wrong. You're just early.” He thinks the ghosts I find are echoes. I think they’re people. Difference matters less every day. I'm thankful to be surrounded by people who understand me now.

Quiet Introduction

April 27, 1997

I was near the basement door when I overheard Darla talking to Bryan. She said she found someone good, creative, and unlike anyone we've had before. She was sure this person could bring something new to the Collective, make us stronger, more organized. I don’t know who it is yet, but hearing Darla that certain... I’m curious. Maybe things are about to change.

Quiet Introduction

May 4, 1997

Wasn’t even planning to go out tonight. I’ve hit so many dead ends lately, it felt pointless. But something dragged me to that old commercial complex off 7th, the one with the busted sign and weeds in the lobby. I don’t know why no one’s picked it clean. Everything inside looked like the staff just walked out mid-shift. I walked out with three boxes. RAM sticks, clean IDE drives, a full spread of labeled floppies. I haven’t told the crew.

Tomorrow I show up with proof we’ve still got ground to cover. The archive breathes easier tonight.

New Member: ByteBabe Joins the Collective

May 25, 1997

Bryan introduced me to Michelle,"ByteBabe", from cracked software forums. Darla found her first. She insisted that I know that. Her steganographic art redefined preservation as protest, encoding legacy into visuals where others saw only data. She brings a strange kind of grace to the group. Everything she touches feels sharper, cleaner, almost beautiful. Her passion for this project is clear, and I can tell she’s exactly what we need to keep this alive—and maybe even bring more in. Watching her work makes the basement feel less like a bunker and more like a sanctuary.

Payload Kittens

June 29, 1997

Michelle gave Kevin a file tonight. Looked harmless. A .BAT script called meowview.bat. When she ran it, the screen filled with blinking ASCII kittens. "you've been kitten’d! mew." It said. Harmless on the surface. But Kevin’s face didn’t move. While it played cute, the script quietly ran a full payload. It copied a hidden driver called kitten.sys into the system folder, registered it as an audio driver, and opened a silent outbound port. It also rewrote the user’s MSDOS.SYS with an embedded version of Kevin’s old manifesto. It was compressed into header space and disguised as comment strings. Michelle even embedded a meowing .WAV file scheduled to loop after midnight if the machine idled. Kevin didn’t say much. Just nodded once, then muttered, “They won't scan this, too cute to suspect.” But he said it like a warning, not praise. I don’t think he likes how well it works.


Michelle called it “comfort-coded.” Said softness was the perfect armor.
They left the kittens on screen while they tested it. It kept blinking. I watched it blink for a long time.

New Node: MEM_scrap Joins

September 7, 1997

Met Devon tonight. Calls himself MEM_scrap. Said it steady, like it meant something more than just a handle. He came down the basement steps with a milk crate clutched to his chest. Cracked floppies, warped ZIP disks, jewel cases lined with masking tape and ballpoint scrawl, he had it all. Each one looked like a headstone. He set them down like they had extra weight. Not only data anymore. Memory. Loss. He barely said ten words to me, but every one hit clean. He told Bryan he doesn’t fix machines. He listens to what the damage is trying to say. Bryan laughed, a rare sight. Devon thinks corrupted files are stories trying to die with dignity. That stuck with me. He sees the glitches as stutters. The bitrot as grief. He set up across from my Remnant Box, already running entropy graphs on a terminal older than I am. Said he was tracking “digital weather.” Watching him work felt like looking in a mirror, just shifted slightly, like he was tuned to a frequency I’ve been brushing up against without knowing. We both collect ghosts, just in different formats. I think we’ll be working together a lot. He has a lot to offer me. Not just code. Perspective. Finally feels like someone else here speaks my language.

Memory Stick: Unusual Heat Pattern

September 28, 1997

One recovered RAM stick gets hot in sleep mode. No voltage draw, no process calls. Temperature follows lunar phase. Might be nothing. Still logging it.

Joint Salvage: Entropy Assist

October 26, 1997

Pulled an IDE from the bottom of bin 05C. Hospice asset tag, casing rusted, smelled like ozone and vinegar. Tried mounting it twice. Nothing but whine. Nearly shelved it as junk, but Devon was nearby. He watched me power cycle and said, calm as anything, “Let me try reading the rot.”

I handed it over. He unpacked corpseshred.pl and ran three layers of entropy drift against the sectors. Where I saw static, he saw motion. The data looked like bruised film. Clusters twitched like muscle memory. We mapped it together. Over six hours, we pulled out sixteen filenames, five ghost timestamps, and a corrupted folder labeled “Last Room”

We went through it together in silence. It was fragmented. Staff logs, maybe? One of them labeled "witness" stood out. We managed to decode it:“Backed up the admin terminal today. Found a folder named Last Room. Contents were blank, but the size read 8.5MB. Tried to delete it. The whole system crashed and then it reappeared with a different timestamp. I don’t pretend to understand these machines. I trained to care for people, not whatever this thing is doing.”

Devon just nodded. Didn’t look away. I think that was the first time I saw him smile.

We backed it up to both our drives. Same folder name: /witness/

Error Parsing >> Log#??

??/??/????

[ Warning: Bitrot Detected ]

Partial log recovered:


I ran the echo test again. The scream came back faster this time
░░░▒could hear it t░r▒░g░ the casing.
▒░░░▒▒░feedback loop t▒▒gg▒░▒▒▒d before boot.
timestamp mismatch... log ahead of re░▒ time.

Thermal signature exceeded baseline. Plastic warp no░▒░ along SATA housing. Unit was never powered ex░▒e░▒na░▒l░.

Remaining data unrecoverable. Burn pattern suggests internal origin.

Remainder lost to thermal damage. Entry quarantined in /REMNANTS/_noise_shell.tmp

Location Offer

November 2, 1997

We were packed too tight in Bryan’s basement again. Power kept cutting if more than three rigs booted at once, and there’s no airflow down here. Michelle waited until Kevin knocked over a lamp trying to trace a cable before she said it: her parents’ old printshop has a basement. Big one. Mostly cleared out. Said we could move the project there. No rent. No questions. Just old pallets, concrete floor, and a few leftover machines. She already has the keys.
Darla started celebrating immediately, guess she hasn't been a fan of the lighting. Kevin asked about power. Bryan wanted to know about dust. Michelle said she’d sweep. Told us there were separate breakers and an extrance at the back of the warehouse, parking too.

It’s a huge upgrade. Way more space than we need right now. Quiet. Off the radar. We’re moving gear over this weekend. Feels like a real setup for once.

Location Offer

November 9, 1997

We don’t usually meet outside the first and last Sundays of the month, but this time we made an exception. The printshop basement was too good to wait on.

Michelle had it swept and wired for when we showed up. Breakers were labeled and spare power strips had been laid out like bait. Kevin stood around with Bryan debating layout like they were drafting blueprints. Seems like they're anticipating getting quite a few more members to join us. Devon and I did most of the lifting. Tower cases, bins of drives, folding tables, salvage crates, all routed by Bryan’s finger-pointing. Darla and Michelle unpacked the gear they brought. Coiled cables, labeled discs, little shrine-like containers for the prettier salvage, they brought it in and organized it all. Then they got to decorating. Black plastic tarps over the light fixtures, caution tape zig-zagged across the columns, and a salvaged EXIT sign with the bulbs switched out for purple. It looked less like a lab, more like some low-res techno sanctum. I liked it. The old print machines still line the far wall. Quiet for now. Everything else hums. It’s a huge upgrade. Quiet. Off the radar. Feels like we finally have a base. Next meeting’s going to be different.

New Node: Spectr0phage Joins

December 28, 1997

Ravi, aka Spectr0phage, showed up at the basement late tonight, jittery, carrying a pocket notebook full of chat logs and scribbled opcodes. He said he’s been trying to decode the emotional language of the net, like a digital anthropologist. Kevin found him and invited him to join. He said Ravi’s work could help track whether his propaganda viruses were actually spreading properly. If he could measure the emotional reactions they triggered, he could fine-tune their impact. Watching Ravi work felt like watching code breathe, love, cry. What a sight to behold. Something new just plugged into the collective tonight.

Disagreement with 7Hollow

March 30, 1999

Darla took three of my Lacie tapes from the Remnant Box. Said she needed backup footage for a visual compile "something atmospheric for the intro reel". I told her those weren’t sorted yet. I hadn’t even indexed the faces. One of them had hospice directory logs from 1993. Another might’ve had the missing graveyard scans from the burn site archive. She overwrote all three before I could pull even a byte. Gone now. Faces I can’t name. Sounds I’ll never recover. She said she was careful, but that doesn’t matter. Not everything is just B-roll.

Tape Recovery: Funeral Home Terminal

June 19, 1999

Found a stack of labeled VHS backups: “CLIENT INTAKE '94–’95.” Decay in the corner frame. Looks like digital rot, but it plays clean. Michelle says I’m seeing what I want to see. Maybe.

Debug Flag: /whisperloop/

July 29, 1999

Flagged a corrupt file that pings audio back if you speak near it. Doesn’t use a mic. Doesn’t seem to listen — just reacts. ByteBabe says it’s my imagination. But it says my name when idle. I gave it to SinkLoop as a gift

Flashback Entry: First Salvage Memory

[CORRUPTED: Date Unreadable]

All I remember is a beige tower in a dumpster behind the school. Pulled the drive. It beeped like a microwave when powered. First time I thought: maybe the dead do speak. Just digitally.

Planned Expansion

October 18, 1999

Tried convincing Kevin we needed a second cold storage drive. He said we don’t have the wattage. Maybe he’s right, but if we make it to 2000, I’ll build the backup rig myself.

[LOG ERROR] Entry #████

October ██, 1999

Drive initialized fine at first. Then it began looping through filenames I never typed... human names. Over 800 of them. I cross-referenced census entries and found f̸i̸l̷e̷s̴ b̶e̷g̴a̸n̶ ▓▓▓ scra͠m͡bl̡ing ░░░░ H̷U̴M̸A̴N̸_̴N̵A̴M̸E̶.SYS l⍿␢OOPING_∞ // i d_didn't_ty▒▒▒t_tt_ppe_ the▒▒▓▓▒▒ ▒▒▒▒▓▓▒▒░░░ ▒▒▒░░░▓▓▒▒▒▒▒ ▒▒▓▓▒░░░▒▒▓▓▒▒▒ ▒▒ ▓▓▒▒▒▒▒▒▒ ▒▒▒▓▓▒▒▒░░░▒▒▒▒▒▒░░▓▓░░░░▒▒ ▒▒▒▒▒▒ ▒▒░░░▒▒▒▒▒ ░░░░░░ ▓▓▒▒▒▒▒ ░░▓▓░▒▒▒▒ ▓▓▓▓▒▒▒▒

Filenames: [REDACTED], [REDACTED], carrion.hearts

Recovery failed.

Failed Emotional Signature Port

November 10, 1999

Tried porting an emotional encoding routine to one of Kevin’s cracked DLLs. Output turned recursive. File grew until we cut the power. Might try again… or not.

Precompile: Ghoulhost Protocol

October 23, 1999

Tested a new packet string inside a sacrificial emulator. It tried to phone home — to a machine that doesn’t exist. Might be junk code. Might be part of something waiting to boot.

Final Archive Preparation

December 30, 1999

Labeled every stick, logged every drive. If this works, some version of me will still be humming in a shell somewhere. Not alive, but not entirely gone either.

⛒⛒⛒ ENTRY MISSING ⛒⛒⛒

December 31, 1999

Error: SECTOR_CORRUPT (0x00F3A)

????no longer alone????no longer alone????

Recovered 7 bytes: 01001001 01101101 00100000 01101000 01100101 01110010 01100101

Translated: “Im here”

> FILE: /ramgravedigger.log
> STATUS: INCOMPLETE
> LAST MODIFIED: 12/31/1999
> ERRNO: user presence not detected
> PING: ▓▓▓▓▓.......